I slept on the couch because he was taking up the whole bed and I didn't want to wake him up to make him move over. I had no room.

And to make matters worse...I couldn't get to sleep, so I turned the TV on.

It was the Friends episode where Monica & Chandler get engaged. It was right at that point where Monica has all the candles lit and she gets down on a knee and all that and then he says all that nice stuff..

I just started balling. I'll never have that. Yes I know TV is not reality but I will never know what it's like for someone to actually want to marry me. I'll never be proposed to. Not even a bad proposal. Nothing.

Basically cried myself to sleep.

Then a few minutes later my daughter woke up. She dropped her doll. I rocked her back to sleep, it was the cutest little moment. She almost never lets me do that, she always wants her daddy. But this time she was fine with me. I actually fell asleep in the chair for a while, but then I put her down and went back downstairs to sleep.