I am so sorry things are so hard for you, @OliverB. How are things going for your Doctors? Are they helping you? Keep writing here. We care about you. Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @OliverB, your Family, your Friends, your Pdoc, your Therapists, your Doctors, your Nurses and ALL of your Loved Ones! KEEP FIGHTING AND KEEP ROCKING NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!