I think you are quite insightful. That is going to go a long way to finding out what makes you feel bad and getting better.

It sounds like you are going to have to let your parents be a bit bewildered by you and take the initiative to getting yourself help. I don't mean don't let them help, let them help, but perhaps you know better than they do what that help should be.

An easy first step would be your school counseller, IF, big IF, he/she is someone you trust and have confidence in and has the qualifications to provide psycho therapy. If he/she has your trust, but not qualified, ask if there is someone else available in the school system.

A little more trouble is to see if your parents have health insurance that covers psycho therapy. Get an appointment. Your first appointment is a "intake" appointment where you both get to know each other. You need to be sure of the trust and confidence factor. It is useless without it.

Don't be nervous or fearful of what you share. You have already had darn good practice with your first post here. I think most therapists would be delighted to have a new client who is so insightful and articulate. You might even print up your post to read to the therapist.

Finally, I don't think most teens have so many concerns as you do. I think you are very wise to be concerned about your own health and be seeking to strengthen it. There is no shame in having these problems.

I feel happy for you. I wish I had been smart enough to get help when I was your age.

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