Well when I went " away " I went to a Christian hospital. I stayed for three and a half months. And it WAS a vacation of sorts. I was at the very bottom when I went, not able to function at all. When I got there I was so relieved to be free of taking care of everyone around me. Free of protecting them from me ( or so I thought ). Free of the charade, " hey I am alright " " no problems here ". I didn't have to hide the cuts and scars. I didn't have to hold back the tears. The RELIEF was immense and almost spiritual. So, if anyone tells you that hospitals are scary or " not the place to be " or any negative input, I would be cautious in taking their advice, probably they haven't been where you are emotionally. My experience was life changing for the good and it certainly saved my life.