Here recently i got a new charge for possession & my x isn't letting me see my baby girl b/c of it! Today is my 3rd day clean & at times i have a very hard time staying clean b/c i don't want to feel these feelings of shame, sadness, and anger! I miss Alyssa so badly & i want her back home! I also deal with severe depression & being bi-polor. i am on meds. for it but they don't seem to be working anymore! I either need to get them changed or adjusted! idk but i have to do something different here! The other day i enrolled myself in the local clinic for counceling & group theropy & i've been going to n/a meetings outside of that. i also found this website & i'm very excited about meeting some new friends on here to chat with & help me get through this hard time without using! & i'm here for anyone that needs me as well! ~hopenfaith~ <font color="purple"> </font>