I weighed myself this morning and to my great chagrin, somehow I GAINED three pounds! I knew I felt heavier yesterday at work..... but I don't get it. I've been following my Slim Fast diet, I've been really good and eating healthy snacks like fruit and nuts otherwise, then a normal sized dinner. I guess my dinners have been too high in calories. UGH. SO frustrating.

I DO want to lost at least 6-7 pounds before I go to the beach in March. Guess I need to watch the calorie intake at dinner. And I will start exercising once my back feels better and when my doctor tells me it will be OK to use equipment that may also work my back muscles.

But I HATE that I am overweight and plump. I've been super THIN most of my life. I now am looking at being at least 20 pounds overweight. I am not happy with being this heavy. It's making me most upset. NONE of my favorite clothes fit me, and even the clothes I bought to accommodate the extra weight are now tight.

I am not used to this. I was chunky back in high school and in college. In high school, I went on a massive diet for a summer and lost 23 pounds. And after college, the extra weight eventually fell off as I started to eat healthier. But in my adult years, I've generally been very very thin.

BIG HUGE SIGH. That's my gripe this morning.