I woke up really early today, and also really hyped up as I said in the check in thread. I thought I broke the habit, but my legs are bouncing like crazy which is kind of one of my hypo/manic indicators (but I also do it when stable just from restlessness and whatnot) and I'm really like running around my house with thoughts so loud.
Last time I called my MHC's crisis line they sent police to my house. I don't need to go to the hospital I just want to chill the **** out. I took an Ativan but it didn't do much Does anyone know how much Ativan I can take my pdoc never made that clear I should probably ask. I have 1mg pills.

I can't do this all day. I might go to group just to ask their advice and come up with a plan and for someone to tell me if I can say I'm manic. I mean I've kinda seen warning signs but I just thought that was excitedness because of snow.

edit: I also had watermelon, cheese, and a jalapeno for breakfast could this be affecting me?

Oh and my therapist and NP both tell me to call the crisis line even if it's not exactly a crisis. When the po=po showed up that was a crisis.