Hey Hope, try not to get ahead of yourself. Hang in there. Sometimes it takes people a while to respond to their emails....sometimes the server goes down, or something happens out of their control. And it is Thursday so that means there is only a day and a few hours left in the week so they might not have had cancellations this week. Try not to get in the cycle of emailing, then emailing something else, then emailing something else. This cycle only seems to make you feel worse. Try to not go to the worst conclusions such as: it is probably over. There are many possibilities and there are many reasons why someone has or has not responded to you. Maybe look back at some of your previous posts and remember how good your T has been for you. I doubt your T is going to get rid of you just because someone on staff was rude to you. If anything, the person on staff should be talked to about how their behavior towards clients affects them.


I once had called my former T's office (when she was still my T) worried because she had not responded to my emails all week which was uncharacteristic. I was worried that perhaps she was sick, or had died, or gotten into an accident. In other words--my imagination and my fears got away from me! The receptionist told me, she's just been busy. And did not even tell the therapist that I had called. When I relayed this to T in session about how I was worried and called the office and the response I got, T was surprised because she had told the receptionist to always let her know if someone calls (unless it was just about rescheduling or something). T was not upset with me, and I don't think she was necessarily upset with the receptionist but I think she was irked that her instructions to her staff had not been carried out. And T assured me that yes she had been busy that week, but she was also contemplating how she wanted to respond to my emails, and in fact had ended up emailing me the night before our session. Lesson learned for me in that one.

Just try to not let your fears carry you away. I'm sorry you are having SUI thoughts. If you don't think you can keep yourself safe, please go to the emergency room or call a hotline. You are cared about Hope. Hang in there. You can do this. HUGS Kit