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Originally Posted by bpcyclist
Thanks, bizi, for the feedback. I started struggling in college, which I ascribed to living on the 3rd floor of a building on Broadway in NYC--quite loud, 24/7. Slept well in medical school I think, but then, all hell broke loose. I did my surgery residency at one of the most brutal programs in the country and we were on call every other night for 5 years. Call was obviously in the hospital and there was never a wink of sleep. I think that may have permanently messed me up. Even if you got to lay down for fifteen minutes at 4 in the morning, there was constant terror of the pager going off with yet someone else trying to die. I call it pager PTSD. Now, phone PTSD.
Anyway, maybe a sleep study. I dunno what that would do. I actually don't care what the name is of what I have, I just want to get better. But I will explore who does them here, how much they cost, etc. Thank you so much for your feedback.
I read a lot about melatonin and decided it didn't look like it worked. Maybe I am wrong.
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Well I know what causes my chronic inability to sleep and it goes back go my childhood.
When we are traumatized especially when it is directly involved with the ability to sleep, well maybe meds can help some , but in reality you have to get to the true trigger ... yours is a pager and pure fear it will always go off. It’s pretty easy to connect the dots for me now.. you need EMDR or trance work, that connection needs cut.. maybe just finding a pager in a thift store and physically destroy it might make a big change.
Trauma therapy is needed