If you all remember I missed my session with T on tuesday because she's going away next week and it hurt too much to see her and say goodbye. we also had a session scheduled on thursday that i didn't plan on going to. i sent her an email on monday telling her this. On tuesday after i didn't show up, she called and left a voicemail expressing concern that i didn't show up. i don't think she saw the email then. she asked me to call her back sometime today. I didn't. i figured she'd get the email when she went in today and it would explain why i missed tues and why i'll miss thurs. Well, she called me again today and left a voicemail that said she was just trying to touch base with me about what happened, and she was wondering if i was coming on thurs. she said to call her and tell her if i'm not. also, she reminded me that she'll be on vacation next week so she hopes she'll see me this week. Obviously she did not read the email. So what should i do? If i really feel like i can't go on thursday, what should i call her and tell her? Although i really wanna see her, i can't even hear her voice without getting upset and i'd just rather wait until she gets back to see her again. Usually right after sessions is when i get really attached, so i'd rather not have to go through that this thursday before she leaves for a week. Do you think you could leave me suggestions on how to tell her this? should i call when i know she'll answer and explain it, or leave a message after hours? I'm just hurting so much i can't even think this through to do it right, so any help from you guys would help immensely.

PS-if she didn't read my email, she doesn't even know how bad i'm doing. i'd feel better if she knew.

thanks