Hello cheell: I see this is your first post here on PC. Welcome to Psych Central. The Survivors of Abuse forum, here on PC, may also be of interest to you. Here's a link:

https://psychcentralforums.com/survivors-of-abuse/

Here are links to 7 articles, from Psych Central's archives, that may be of interest:

What It's Like to Be a Complex Trauma Survivor of Narcissistic Abuse

Healing from Complex-PTSD in the Aftermath of Narcissistic Abuse | The Savvy Shrink

Complex PTSD and the Realm of Dissociation

Affect Dysregulation and C-PTSD

https://psychcentral.com/lib/c-ptsd-...relationships/

https://pro.psychcentral.com/recover...-sexual-abuse/

https://psychcentral.com/blog/6-step...r-inner-child/

I hope you find PC to be of benefit.