So today I got rear ended while on my lunch break. Very low speed, I didn’t notice any damage on the car who did it and it was a small car like mine, so I didn’t even stop (I only get 30 minutes for lunch). When I got back to work I checked the back of my car. No damage. So whatever. BUT, on my way home, *I*rear ended a school bus!!! Same deal, low speed, no damage. The bus driver came out and said I needed to be more careful (which I did, I should have been paying more attention, I didn’t think he would come to a complete stop at a yield sign) but let me go without calling the cops. Sheesh! Two accidents in one day! At least both of them were low speed and no damage. No police report, no car insurance claim. I will be more careful and I hope others will too.

I woke up out of a nightmare today. In my dream, RS was accusing me of cheating on him and threatening to break up with me. Just like my husband used to do. My husband once made me FaceTime him while I was grocery shopping because he didn’t believe I was where I said I was. And we had been married for like, three years at this point and I had never cheated on him. He was totally paranoid.

The more I think about it (usually in bed at night with RS next to me), the more I realize how much my relationship with my husband was messed up. He loved me, I know, but he was also hot tempered. He was always fighting with me over dumb ****. He was verbally abusive at times, paranoid. He never understood my illness. He always accused me of becoming depressed just to ruin his life and never tried to make me feel better. When I was depressed earlier this year, RS would just simply snuggle with me to help me feel better. That’s all I needed from my husband, but I never got it. When I first told RS I had bipolar, he set about researching everything he could. My husband could never be bothered. And then my husband fell into drugs and ruined MY life, financially and personally, and yet still blamed me. I loved him. A part of me always will. But I love RS more. We’ve only been together for a year and some change, but our relationship is amazing. I’m sure we will run into troubles as time goes on, but I trust RS more to weather the storms. The only reason my husband and I didn’t divorce was because he didn’t believe in it, and I couldn’t walk away. I hope I’ll never have that problem with RS.