i cant cope today... i feel like crying all the time, i feel so alone, abandoned and lost... still stupidly waiting to hear from them...

Popping down pills to stay calm

I could have expected this from anyone but my Ts... people i have paid for years and know me too well. Do they want to hurt me and punish me for quitting? Are they doing this for me or for them?

You know... neither of them told me to contact them in case of need... not that i would have done it, but it would have been nice to hear that...

Im so sad and feel almost betrayed today.