I’m sorry you’re in so much pain.

You wrote in your first post that fT told you some nice things in the email aswell. Could you try focusing on them?

Myself, I easily misunderstand or overinterpret an email response. Or the lack of one..

Once I emailed my T and she didn’t respond. It was the first time that she didn’t respond to my email and I was so disapointed and I thought that she probably was sick of me. When I asked her in session later if that was the case, she looked very surprised. She appologized and said that she had been away for a couple of days and that she wasn’t sick of me at all.