Thank you Amandea,

yes, fT said a FEW positive things but i strongly believe they were said just out of politeness and didnt mean them at all. they actually give me bad vibes.

i know im agonizing over this all… all i can do is writing here, talking pills, alcohol, SH and hoping i die soon.

i will never go back to them after this. or to anyone else.

i knew it would have been hard, i imagined something like this but imagining is one thing, living it is another…

Thanks for your support. i hope i dont bother anyone if i keep writing and posting here...