Thank you LonesomeTonight,

Though it doesnt feel like they're just following the rules... they havent in the past. Its not the first time i (tried to) quit.

It feels so PERSONAL that is why its so painful.

And why asking me to email them and then answering without compassion and making me feel miserabe or not answering at all???

I do not want to go back but i would have liked an answer or a better one and having clear how they think and feel about ut, because they didnt say it... and never said i can contact them again in the future, something that they have said in the past.

So it really feels its personal rejection, tired and fed up with me and not wanting anything to do with me ever again. And it HURTS SO MUCH.

ID LIKE TO UNDERSTAND... JUST THAT