she's pretty relaxed about the times i've missed apts. she didn't even charge me when i skipped because i was "mad" at her. i think this is a little different too because i'm not going anywhere, T included.

I always do that too, pretend everythings fine in person (or not realize its not fine) and then cry at home. then i call her in tears in the middle of the night and leave messages. then i go back in and we talk about it and i pretend its all ok, and the cycle continues, haha.

i'm glad your able to go to your t next week kiya. i don't feel strong enough.

i guess i'm hoping she calls but i'm not sure what i want her to say. i don't know, i can't wait until next week when she's home again and things can resume.