There’s an event that happened to me about 2 and a half years ago (June 2018 to be exact) that has deeply affected me and especially my mental health. I don’t really want to give out a lot of info about that event (i’m embaressed) but basically i got harassed (received threats too) over something really bad i’d said on the internet .i think it was a trauma for me as i still haven’t forgotten about it and as it causes me a great deal of agony. Because 2 years after the event, the thought of it still haunts and agonizes me i think it has caused PTSD.

Though i can’t really recall exactly how was i feeling right after the event, i remember that i was sweating, my heart was racing, my hands were shaking, i was confused and didn’t know what to do. So i told about it to my mom so she tried to calm me down. For about a year, it didn’t really interfere with my daily life but it would pop up to my mind time to time. On April 2019, things started to go downhill. I got a call from a stranger and that triggered me. I couldn’t concentrate at class and i’d always think about that event 24/7. I couldn’t sleep, the thought of it would always bug me. On May 2019, i started to dread going to school because i was scared. On June 2019,it got even more worse as it was the 1 year anniversary of that event. I got really depressed, i had never been this sad. I was anxious and would always think about that event. I started to stay at home because i thought my friends didn’t like me. So my mom dragged me to the psychiatrist and i was **** scared of her idk why. The psychiatrist told me that i was a bit anxious and depressed but there was nothing wrong. She offered me to do CBT and told me that there was no need to take medication. I didn’t go to the therapy btw. On July 2019 and August 2019, i couldn’t leave the house. I felt scared. I was comtemplating about suicide. I would catastrophize the future. I’d lost hope in everything. I couldn’t sleep alone,i’d share my bed with my mom. I wouldn’t eat, i couldn’t leave my room, i wouldn’t shower and i’d have intrusive thoughts. I left my house to go out once and i got dissociared. Around the end of August 2019 with the help of my family, i got better, started seeing an another psychiatrist. Since i wasn’t comfortable talking about that event, i wasn’t 100%. honest with her. On September 2019, school started and i was **** scared at school. I was nervous, i felt lost and hated to be there. 2 weeks into school, i started therapy. As i was still not comfortable talking about that event i wasn’t being honest with her. So she prescribes me Sertraline. When the effects of it started, i got better. I started caring less about that event. However, the effects of sertraline are starting to wear off (dosage 75mg, i’m really sensitive to substances btw) . I’ve been having nightmares correlating to that event every night. I feel anxious and i feel like i’m going into my depressive episode again.

P.S. I’m 16, going to highschool and seeing a psychiatrist, going to therapy. I’m not diagnosed with a mental ilness.. And 4 months into therapy i still can’t open up to my therapist about that event. That event has shaped me a lot and changed my personality.

So do you think i have PTSD? or something else? notice that my therapist/psychiatrist hasn’t diagnosed me with something in fact she tells me that she can’t really figure me out but she told me that i didn’t have an axis 1 mental ilness .