Hugs LT.
Lemoncake, you're such a thoughtful person. You deserved a better dad. My sister had an aunt read to her when she was young because our parents never read to us or played with us. I'm envious because that aunt never liked me since I was really young and no one read to me.
SlumberKitty, hugs if wanted. Tbh I could only stop SH for long periods after I had other coping mechanisms and had addressed some of the underlying reasons why I SHed.