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Bella P,
I can't really say if your dreams are reflecting a reality or not, but obviously you're concerned that they could be. I've read and heard about hypnotherapy as being a tool that hypnotherapists use to unlock repressed memories and missing time. At the very least, they might be able to stop your recurring dreams from occurring.
Perhaps you could look into seeing a hypnotherapist, Bella P?
And thank you for sharing, as well. All the best.