Thank you Rive,

but you know its not that easy. for me it really is as if they both have died, as if im facing a sudden double grief.

you cant just turn the page, especially when the way we parted wasnt one that made me feel peace but a lot of other negative feelings.

its as if they had an accident and we didnt get to say goodbye in a good way and there are things left unsaid, at least from their part.

its like we met and they both said "next time i'll tell you something" but then they have an accident and im left wondering what is it that they wated to say…. this doesnt help turning the page, it makes me feel stuck hanging and wondering.

and i know theres nothing i can do and thats why im not going to contact them again, but the questions and doubts in my mind remain...

its like we didnt have a real ending, so how can i turn the page?