i KNOW I terminated them and im fine with it. im not doing well with them wanting me to email them and then not answering at all or answering telling me theres no need for further contact. which IS understandable, but contradicts what she's been saying all the way (that circumastance may change and i may want to come back).

they just reacted like they are not themselves anymore. and im left confused and wanting an explanation but not wanting to ask.

also, today i decided im going to quit going at the mental health center too, which is where id get meds and talking with pdoc.
im DONE with it all. i hate everything, i hate everyone, i hate life and i hate myself and i just cant wait for the end.