My entire existence is based on my Christianity, but at the moment and for quite awhile, I am not/have not been going to church. I actually don't think it's the churches, I think it's my problem. I am so sickened by mega-"pastors" in their $40 million jets taking advantage of simple people in rural Texas that I have become unfairly suspicious of all churches. Not fair to them. All me. I really need to work on this, as I would like to go.