Disappointment is a response to expectations that didn't work out. One can hold onto expectations, even if people aren't behaving that way, frequently because we feel we need what we are expecting or because we believe that what we are expecting is right, or something similar.

But reality is reality, how she handles things is how she handles it. Can you learn anything from her about where she is coming from by the way she handles things? If you don't understand, can you ask?

You've been repeatedly disappointed by therapists, as have I. I didn't like the counselor I went to see last week, but I'm going try what she suggested -- I found a way it fits in with what I want, even though I think she suggested it for another reason. And I'm going back. She suggested we try 3 visits. Maybe I can find a way to use what she says in a way that works for me. And even though I don't like her and find her far too directive and authoritarian for my taste, she also said that she was going to do what I asked for -- give me feedback about how I come across. I'll see. Got no hard and fast expectations she'll actually do that, but we'll see. And maybe I'll get something else out of it if she doesn't, again I'll see.

I've got a "defense" these days against her authoritarianism -- I know I don't like it and I no longer feel like I have to like her in order to go back and try to get something from her. That's different from your situation, I know, and different from what most people want from a therapist. Also very different from how I was with therapists in the past.

I tried and tried and there is no therapy, or therapist that I could find, for me. So, I'm going to try to take what I can get and see if I can make something from it. I'll only lose the cost of 3 sessions, and her fees are relatively low. If it doesn't work, I may try somebody else, or I may not. One step at a time.

Given that you may lose sick leave benefits if you don't see someone for treatment, I hope you can find a way within yourself to accept the way she is and try to find something positive in what she is trying to offer.