That's right. I remember that now. Hope, I remember you really were upset about the idea of bpd and seemed then to be trying to grasp on to some other diagnosis -- any other diagnosis -- than bpd.

BPD and Bipolar can exist at the same time, but it sounds like your psychiatrist hasn't seen your symptoms as fully characteristic of bipolar disorder which may be why he's won't go with the depakote. They patterns you show here all seem to point with the bpd diagnosis, but if you are seeing other symptoms more indicative of bipolar disorder, you really will have to start tracking your symptoms. Bipolar episodes generally don't happen suddenly; they're kind of a slow burn into a sudden severity, and the episodes last sometimes weeks and months at a time; they are also not generally the result of events or personal reactions to people/feelings.There are exceptions to that, but that's the general idea. Part of the bipolar criteria for diagnosis has to do with the length of the episodes. Changes in mood with bpd are more sudden, shorter in duration, and more connected to reactions to events and emotions. That's why charting your moods is helpful in getting an accurate diagnosis.