Right, say I do have this illness what now? I mean for the love of god I can't stay med compliant I've tried everything (reminders on my phone, a tick point system for rewarding my good behaviour, pills are in pill boxes with the days on them, people reminding me, sitting them next to where I sleep so I see them first thing in the morning and last thing at night, double and triple reminders and also downloaded apps for my phone which literally is installing in you to take the damn things I have 8 apps like this. Plus I do a mood diary in my notes on my phone which states meds took.)

We thought about a single med ie a depot injection but I could only get it for Aririprazole I take 20mg once a day. They thought that would be pointless. I also take Propanol 40mg daily and Depakote 500mg twice a day.

I am just stumped that no-one knows that I am off the meds. I mean I must be showing signs right?

Yeah I'm still able to do things like keep appointments. But my motivation which I was hoping to have back is still non-existent. I'm not kidding you my flat is so messy to the point of it is going to take me a month of Sundays to just clean it. I have no food what so ever in my flat bare cupboards and fridge.

Yes I had sever depression Sept-Nov suicidal etc. Worst I have felt in 7 years. I do not get like that and it took a lot out of me