The results on the sanity score was expected, thank goodness. I actually thought that I was worse than the score said that I am. A glimmer of hope.
The problem is that I am too scared to get help. I couldn't even talk about my condition to my ex, how the heck am I going to talk to some complete stranger? I've lives my life blunted all my life, the courage to deal with my issues is not going to drop from the sky. I wish that I could chat to a therapist over the internet. I will still go into a panic attack, but at least it would be in a familiar environment.