10 years ago I was compliant and then about a year later I had stopped my meds I was apparently delusional (believed they had been micro chipped and I swallowed them therefore I was carrying special information in me that the police wanted/needed) as soon as I told my old CPN I had stopped my meds because this happened he told me it was a delusion. I had I don't think ever had a delusion prior to this.

So I'll say the last 9 years have been non compliant. I'll be taling them and the least little thing ie forgetting them will throw me out of sync and I struggle to keep taking them. If I have an unplanned night at someone's house obviously I don't have my clothes let alone my meds so that throws me too. Its here I can't get back into a routine with them.

I've tried carrying my meds in my bag but I get anxious about that for some reason. I kinda feel paranoid like if the police was to do a random stop and search they will find them and I'll be put in prison (stupid I know)

I don't really want to tell people irl that I'm off my meds as they will be mad at me. They will get me into trouble.... even though I'm an adult and it's my choice my own personal choice if i go off them.

Maybe I could be the except in the rule and I'll be ok without them?