Thank you all for your continuous support, your wise words and advices, but i feel i have my hands tied.

i already asked both if we could have an extra session and neither of them replied or accepted

but reality is that i do not want to go back.

i just would have liked a better reply from fT (one that wouldnt have been triggering) and ANY answrer from mT, after THEY asked me to email them after our final session.

this makes no sense to me and thats why i cant seem to find peace.