Hi everyone! It's been a whirlwind of a year. Last year I had my first manic episode in March at age 44, was hospitalized for a week, then outpatient for over a month. I was diagnosed Bipolar 1, although my doctor and therapist both say my extreme abuse of marijuana both before and during the mania, along with stress in my marriage and finances, could have created the "perfect storm". They say I may have been misdiagnosed even though I had ALL the symptoms. Mania and psychosis lasted several weeks, followed by an INTENSE, brutal depression lasting all summer, finally ending in September. I'm stable now, and applied to grad school for a Master's in Social Work with a concentration on substance abuse and mental health. I felt like it was time to use my experiences with substance abuse and mental health to help others. College started last week, and now I'm SO very afraid and anxious. Afraid of failure, afraid I'm in over my head, and mostly... afraid the stress of school could trigger another episode. Is it possible to manage BP and go to grad school, or did I make a huge mistake and put my mental health in danger? Any advice would be much appreciated.