I know I should call my pdoc tmrw but I really dont want to. I dont know how at the best move to make and I know she should know that but I dont think she does. I mean she doesn't seem that smart. Everything I say so far she just goes along with. I say I want to go off something, change something, etc I am a master convincer who can make her say whatever. This is my 6 or so pdoc in the past 6 years. I'm sick of taking ativan just to hold a conversation and it doesn't last that long. I'm going to make a calming playlist making another thread soon for that if I remember. These thoughts man, I dont even know what they're doing at this point just call me your average