This is so not better than to be on a drug. I mean in the long run I would agree, but here and now?

What's so damn fancy about chills, massive sweats, massive nausea and stomach pain almost unreal?

Withdrawals don't even scare people away from using.

Day 8. Was a little bit better a few days but now I'm back to where I begun almost. Not a straight line. Days are different in how horrible they are. Cut out the kratom because I felt it was more usable in the past. Now it might just slow me down.

My friend sleeps here a lot but she can't be here right now. It bothers her that I constantly whimper and cry in my sleep, if I manage to sleep.

Everyone I talk to says I should be better right now. Much better. Yea right. Am not. Too bad I don't have a time schedule for this to see when the temperature swings will even out a bit and the nausea, headache, back pain and stomach pain will be milder.

Not that I will back down and start using and try to taper down. There isn't even much to taper with, would be grains pretty much. I know I'm whiny as heck and that I did this to myself. But really, I just can't wait to be able to actually lie down and get decent rest. When I lie down I hurt the most.

Managed to shower but it was a huge struggle and I didn't do it to get cleaner even. Did so I could put dry, clean stuff on, and also I spent 2 hours in the hot shower trying to get my body temp up. Shuddered all the way.