Hey guys, I know this is wrong but.

The simple fact is that earlier today, I was ready to end it all. Then I popped a vicodin, 4 xanax, and started drinking liberally. Now I feel just fine. It has helped to clear my head and realize how irrational i was behaviing before.

I dunno what to make of this. Am I better off just taking drugs in times os extreme hardship? I don't know if I could have made it through tonight otherwise.