i know and i dont want to go back or them asking me to go back. i really dont.
i just thought it was easier, i would not feel so alone and not have this feeling of having left with unsaid things, as if the closure werent complete.

i miss them, what can i do?

my whole life was leaning on and rhtymed by T appts. and what i would tell them.
now im lost.
i had the sui plan organized anyway, at least (i thought), i wouldnt have to explain, say goodbye, apologize or feel too much guilt without them around...