Yes, hugs are OK, thanks.

T agrees that H’s idea of “therapy” is scary. T sees breaking someone down as the total opposite of being human yet alone of being a therapist.

IF I could continue to see T and leave H at this point I would at least be separating until H agreed to marriage counseling but more likely just leaving. Right now I do not have the ability to earn enough to support myself and see T as I have too many other high expenses.

I do get to see T today and it will most likely just be a session of nurturing and support. T is (rightfully IMO) upset at how much H is interfering with my work weather or not it is intentional. I know T will be sad and worried that today what I need from him is to feel safe and loved and it might not be a day for work beyond that. There may be a silver lining of sorts in this as I think it has pushed me to a place where I will most likely honor those younger parts more in session today and may allow T closer to them even if I don’t want T to work with them.

H has just gotten downright ridiculous.