Yes but i dont trust anyone to talk about my feelings and i dont want to explain anyone what im doing and why. Im all alone except for this forum.

And i was scared to admit all the truth here too because there are rules and i dont want to break them. (Any time it happened it happened without me knowing so i can even trust what to say here)

I dont trust anyone, i dont trust anyone, not even me. I just have to hang on a bit longer...