PC friends and my psychiatrist by far. I don't have anyone in real life that I can depend on. People don't want to hear about your latest psychotic episode or your suicidality. I visited my oldest pal in Spetember and was totally up front with him about how suicidal I had been then. He texted me to be sure I got home on the train safe and sound, which was very thoughtful. But he has not once just sent a three-word text to sorta check on me, which is something I would personally have done had I been in his shoes. I would have been worrying about the suicidality thing.

But again, I love him to death, but he has a perfect life. Is like, the number 8 person at the largest bank in the world and makes several million dollars a year. His youngest daughter is going to be a huge star in the music industry, so frigging amzingly talented singer. On and on. They'd much rather talk to their friend about his motorcycle trip to Italy or how their perfect childrena are all doing at Stanford and Smith. Nobody wants to deal with us, in my experience. That's why I am so grateful for you guys and my pdoc.