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Originally Posted by fern46
I kind view it like I'm a pendulum swinging around in a circular... Or maybe more of a spiraling motion. I'd like for the curves to be nice and aesthetically pleasing, but the truth is there are sharp edges and major swings back and forth sometimes. I can see the beauty in that motion too.
What a lovely and healthy way of looking at this!
An upgrade for one can be a virus to another. A virus for one can be the doorway for an amazing system overhaul for someone else. Relativity is a concept I have learned to lean on a lot over the past few years. The force that returns one person to balance can be the very force that implodes someone else's world completely. Finding our own truths and learning to design our own systems takes this truth into account. Using other people's system successes and flaws can serve as lights along a sometimes dark path, but everyone is their own sun. 
Thank you for expanding on this point with such excellent examples, fern. |
To describe my bipolar journey these last several years, I used to use an analogy of slipping down the side of a mountain, again and again, as I struggled to hoist myself or scratch and claw towards the top. I had to learn a degree of acceptance of this struggle, but also how to find pleasure and strength in my current spot(s). And yet, I prevented myself from losing hope of seeing and experiencing the world from a higher (or at least different) vantage point. So, very very slowly, as I can, I inch my way upward, or take steps forward along lateral paths. As I traverse and ascend, the world takes on a new and interesting view. Sometimes I take a break in a spot, and rest and meditate, but eventually move on. If I fall again, I try to choose a new route or one I wish to revisit in some way, but hopefully only for good purposes.
If or when I'll ever reach the top of such a mountain, I don’t know. Is it even necessary in the end? My journey will not be for naught. All I know is that staying at the bottom forever is not an option for me. I will not be chained forever down there, nor will I dig a hole even further down to climb into.