i tried to not hurt them. they hurt me.
i tried to have a good ending, they havent.
i said goodbye staying open to further contacts, they havent.
i need them, they dont need me.
i dont want to need them either.
i only feel like dk and kt and jump
not doing anything but taking pills but seriously thinking about all this
cant tell anyone
maybe not even here
sorry.

ive been in T for 13 yrs if im not ready now, when? will i ever be ready? i doubt that so i had to follow what was rationally best for everyone
best for everyone