thanks (((((kiya, BB, lyn, christina, paintingravens, fuzzy)))))
I don't really wanna admit to this but things are still the same altho the despair/desparation/hurt has dulled in intensity. I did get thru last nite without doing anything tho, (my meds worked rather well; came here just before and saw a reply I was making to a post...I must have been really affected by the meds coz I have no idea how refs to 'chalk dust' and 'jumping kitties' came to be in the reply lololol . I am sooooo glad I didn't actually post it ). And with or without meds I can't do it tonite- I have to see my med dr tomorrow due to...ummm...some getting...ummm... infected