Sandy,
I'm glad he was able to open up to you, and that you both are feeling a bit better about it. I know you are a loving parent. I imagine this was quite frightening. I just want to encourage you to get professional help as well as providing your own support. This is not easy, and it will be hard on you, too. Internet chat is NOT therapy. It can help, but it is NOT therapy. He needs to see a professional. I can respect his decision about meds, but therapy can really help, too. Please try to find him a T.

And make sure you are taking care of yourself, too. You know the old airplane routine. You have to put your own oxygen on first, before trying to help others.

(((Sandy and Ben)))

gg