Not much happening here. Fibromyalgia is still rough, but I think it is improving. Mostly, I have been resting, reading, watching TV, surfing the net, and organising things. Every second day I have been going for swims down the beach. Although I am exhausted it helps to keep somewhat active. It also is helping my hip to recover, and it is recovering. Yeh! My mood has been flat, but I put that down to the exhaustion, and my despair over being physically restricted. I need my physical health to improve before I start university in four weeks. It is only part time, but that is still 20 hours a week of extra energy I need to find. My health has prevented me from working or studying the last two years. I won't have it taken from me again. So, I am going to keep up looking after my body, and hope that it recovers soon.
A year ago I had been severely mixed for four months then by this time I went psychotic. I was hospitalised Jan 31 last year, given ziprasidone (Geodon), and came out of psychosis on the 9th February, and have been euthymic (stable) bipolar-wise since March 2019. Although last year was a difficult year due to PTSD it has been amazing to live without mood episodes. Before March last year I had rarely been stable for decades. This last 11 months have been amazing. I still fear another episode, but the terror of it is easing. Although the PTSd has calmed down too I feel very fragile still. I think this will be my recovery, and move on, year.
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Bipolar 1 with psychotic features
PTSD
"Phew! For a minute there I lost myself."
'Karma Police' by Radiohead
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