Kiya and Miss charlotte, YES! you both put into words what I was writing last night. I

Echoes,Yes I think hearing from T would remind me she's not there. Shes away another week, maybe I will email next week, I'm not sure.

Perna, I know you feel your helping, but sometimes I do feel you are taking away my feelings Like your talking to a toddler and telling her to stop whining and go play, as I say, only sometimes...but these are feelings I'm talking about and they do not always respond to rationale directions. I'm sure you know that one too.