Your disease is trying to kill you by telling you these lies Christina mentioned. Don't let it do that. Don't let its tricks fool you. Things will turn around. Breathe. You've got reinforcements on the way, so that will help give you a little space where you can hopefully regroup a little. Maybe sleep a bit would be nice at some point, too. Sleep when you can. If it's 1 in the afternoon and you've got help with the kids and that's when sleep is gonna happen for you, then do it, I say.

When things are like this for me, as they have been sorta for a couple of months now, I let go of whatever rigid structure I can let go of and just try to ride it. So, I am writing this at 159 AM, because there is no sleep happening tonight Zero. I'll sleep when I sleep. For now, I am trying to post on your thread and just be supportive of what an amazing job I think you are doing.

Try not to judge yourself when things are this difficult. You are doing a great job and the best you possibly can under extremely hard circumstances. You deserve tons of credit for battling through this, for suiting up and taking care of those kids as best you can and yourself as well. You are reaching out. Asking for support. You will get a ton. Stop judging. You are doing a great job!!