I’m sorry you’re hurting., Hope. I don’t think that stopping therapy with him is a good idea at the moment. Correct me if I’m wrong, but you felt this way before with a previous t, and when you tried working through the feelings, you felt like he cared again? I guess what I’m trying to say is that when we are being emotional it’s hard to see things clearly and we jump to conclusions that are not accurate.

I’m not necessarily saying that taking a whole session to tell you off is good, but it might be worth fighting the urge to run away and just go to your next session feeling whatever you are feeling (even if that is anger).

From experience, people aren’t as black and white as “he told me off therefore he doesn’t care about me anymore”. You can deeply care about someone and be stern about boundaries at the same time. Plus, it’s not exactly untrue. I’m not trying be mean but this does seem to be a pattern—you emailing a therapists a bit too much and then feeling like they don’t care about you when they uphold their boundaries.

I’m sorry if I’m overstepping, but I think it might be a good idea for you to look through your past posts on here and see if you recognise this pattern (boundary talk=they don’t care about me/I’m going to leave). Might be a good idea to take this to your next session and explore it a bit? Change is not going to happen unless you at least try to tune down the emotional responses (easier said than done, I know ) and think about things a bit more pragmatically.

I wish you all the best.