Hey thanks for the backup. actually what i meant was i "threw away the family" because of the hurt.

it was only a year but it was a GREAT year. nights with no food was just FINE with me! as long as i didnt have the heartache.

I appreciate you telling me i am an inspiration. I dont feel like one, but its nice to hear from others. my self esteem is SHOT lately.

For the record you all are an inspiration to ME.....
Hope youre day is safe

Colleen