Hey everyone!

I’d like to thank everyone in advance for reading my post and taking the time to weigh in - it means a lot to me and I read through everything.

The reason I am reaching out today is because I’m still thinking about a guy who I haven’t spoken to in months (since November) and haven’t seen in even longer.

He asked me out for drinks during the summer and then didn’t follow up for a week and from then on I bombarded him with ridiculous sexts and texts and completely embarrassed myself (so when he eventually did answer, I had to decline to see him out of embarrassment).

Some of the messages I sent were just downright odd and I had to delete them and block them out of my memory.

I think about him everyday and yesterday I actually started crying about it and the fact that he doesn’t care about me and won’t even ask me how I am doing etc.

Basically my emotions are too much for me to handle and I feel like a monster and hate myself because of this.

Why did I latch onto this random guy? Why can’t I just forget about it? Why can’t I just act and think like a normal person? These are the questions I ask myself.

I broke up with my long term bf one year ago and I never had any problems, I never thought about it and accepted it in a normal way. But for some reason this guy, who I liked, sticks around in my head and I think about him and miss him everyday. It’s a truly obsessive tendency which I wish I could stop.

I’m not going to message him because I know that this connection I feel is entirely in my head and is not real (also I don’t think it’s socially acceptable to msg someone two months later when you were barely even friends to begin with).

I think I might be slightly borderline and I want to know if anyone else can make sense of this behaviour or if they can relate.

Thanks for all your help!