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Originally Posted by Innerzone
The one day I can kind of sleep in? Woke up 2:45. AM. Ugh. Going on 6 am now.
Other than that, just checking in with a quick update. BP-wise, doing alright I guess. Functioning.
The BDD though is kicking my ***. There is (literally) NO hope in that realm, and that's hard to live with. I really don't talk about it though because people think it is some kind of joke dx -- like, oh, "everyone" hates their body/thinks they're fat/what-have-you, so why is that even a thing? Except that it's NOT that. And if the umbrella gets that overly-inclusive, I'm out. Because for me it goes to the core of identity. And I do not exist. I try to make like it's ok, but it very much is not. And every.single.day it makes me want to die. Every.single.f******.day. Being triggered virtually every waking hour is exhausting. And depressing AF.
Sorry, this is turning into a rambling pity-fest. I'll stop now, because truly, there's nothing for it. This is my fate. End of story.
I shouldn't even have written this at all. Guess I'm just feeling the need to vent, and have no place else to do that currently. Sorry.
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I don't know if this is at helpful, but I once met a guy at a DBSA meeting with both bipolar disorder and BDD. I regret that I probably responded in a way that was most unhelpful, and perhaps unappreciated, at the time. I confess I was shocked when he told me about his BDD. I didn't understand. My response was surely a trite one. I told him I thought he was good-looking. I really meant it! If you're willing, could you share what a helpful response would have been?