Posters are trying to offer suggestions to help Hope get to a better place. She is asking for help. We are not badgering.

Hope, we are listening to what you are telling us. If you choose to share information we might have useful suggestions.
If you would prefer not to reveal details about your life that is absolutely your right.

Like Shotokan said, you are able to have some income and still qualify for disability. There are income and asset restrictions but from what you have posted, it doesn't seem that this poses a problem.

Your siblings benefit payments should not affect your disability application.
I speak from experience and am attempting to offer useful info.
It's difficult, I get that.
I hope that someone here is able to suggest an option that you would choose to pursue.
Wishing you the best.