actually, my sister was the one who threatened suicide. it's when I tell my mom about her condition that she'll do so, so i have to keep quiet every day listening to her for hours. very exhausting and i didn't know what to do. even until now, being in a situations where i feel like i'm trapped is really deteriorating, and then suddenly i just forget about what i wanted to say. if i push myself to say something i get really furious and emotional and i feel guilty to other people because of my sudden inappropriate anger.

i usually avoid everyone when i'm like this and would isolate myself inside my room / call someone who i can really trust though